On the train home from uni today I had a think about my priorities. I was on my way home from yet another meeting about an assignment that is at the top of what seems to be a never ending pile of coursework that could, with just another tiny little nudge, end up falling down on top of me, burying me under it, never to be seen again.
Lately, I have been struggling to find the motivation to get assignments done. I mean, in undergrad, I never wanted to do assignments either, but somehow I found the motivation lurking in the corner a couple of days before things were due. This got me through my bachelor degree with a distinction average, but now that I am doing my masters degree I seem to have to force myself to do the work. Either the motivation has found a new place to hide, or it just isn’t there. I am erring on the side of the latter.
I realised the other day that the motivation lurking in the corner was the fact that I needed good marks to get into my masters degree – I had to do well, otherwise I wouldn’t be able to go on and be a dietitian like I have wanted to do for so long. Unfortunately, now that I am doing the masters degree there is not that pressure to get in. Don’t get me wrong, there is other pressure – and plenty of it! To be one of the lucky few to get into the course is pressure enough (for every one of us that got in there are 3-4 others who didn’t) and then there is the fact that at the end of it all, there just aren’t very many jobs out there in the field. Surely that would be enough ‘motivation’ to do well? Apparently not!
On the train this afternoon I was adding to my ever growing list of non-study related things that I would love to do right now, but which have to wait until after exams. This is when it struck me that every waking moment of my day is filled with uni and study and assignments and readings at the moment – there is no ‘me’ time. When I do finally get a chance to do something that I want to do, I end up overdoing it, feeling guilty and sorry for myself and having even less time to do the work. I guess it is kind of like strict dieting, if you restrict your diet too much and don’t allow yourself to enjoy something you like every now and then, you are more likely to fall off the wagon, gorge on chocolate/cake/whatever your vice is and end up with even more kilos to lose. I need a little bit of ‘me time’ to keep me on track.
Looking at my list of things that have to wait until holiday time, writing on my food blog stood out to me. Firstly, because it is written in capitals with an exclamation mark, but also because it is something that I have put on the back burner for a long time due to study commitments and a busy life. It is one of those things that the longer you put it off, the harder it is to start back up again. Will any of my readers still be following me? Will they care what I am doing now or is my blog over and done with? Hopefully you are still out there somewhere, if not I am content with talking to myself, because this blog makes me happy and it is about time that I started making myself a priority.
So, what has been going on since August? I graduated with a Bachelor of Health Sciences, majoring in Nutrition and Health Promotion, moved in with my boyfriend and started my Master of Dietetics degree. That is the last 9 months in a nutshell! Feel free to tell me what is going on in your world as well. I just checked my comments for the first time since August and out of the 328 waiting to be published, only 1 was a legitimate one!
Finally, I know it is a day late for Menu Plan Monday, but I thought I would share our menu for this week.
Monday 24/5 (Meatless)
Cheese & Vegie Pasties w/ Salad
Chicken & Pumpkin Tacos
Friday 28/5 (Fish)
Fish, Steamed Vegies & Calcannon
Sunday 30/5 (Soup)
Pea & Ham Soup w/ Crusty Bread
You can find lots more menus (313 and counting!) over at I’m an Organizing Junkie.